God, what are you trying to say to me?

I have always loved reading and writing. Words have just done something for me. Even with my love for books, nothing in my life has struck me like prayer journaling. It's something about writing the date at the top of the page, spilling out all of my thoughts and tears, and watching God blow my mind over time. The best piece of advice I've ever received is: WRITE IT DOWN!

My prayer journaling has evolved over time. Originally when I would journal it would be when I was super sad or super mad- I had to get it out. Many times it was about my exes not doing what I wanted them to or when my heart was shattered in a million pieces. In October 2019- when I watched Crazy Faith something happened when I saw Pastor Mike hold up a sheet of paper. When I saw his receipt: dated and timed with the vision God gave him, my baby leaped.

From that day in 2019 until now I've probably filled up about 15 journals. 🤯🤯 Prayers to God, visions He has given me, desires of my heart and things that I've thought were in possible. To know me, is to know I keep a journal with me. I'm ALWAYS writing things down and I'm beyond blessed when Holy Spirit tells me to go back and read it.

One thing I LOVEEEE to do now, is journal from the viewpoint that God is speaking directly to me. On a prayer call in 2022, the leader turned on soaking instrumental music and posed the question, "God what are you trying to say to me?" For over a year now, Holy Spirit has been speaking to me, through me.

This is a journal entry He had me write January 13, 2023. I pray it blesses you like it blessed me.

Daughter, you are safe. Trust me and believe that I have you. There is nothing you could do to ruin this plan. You indeed had an Amos 9:13 MSG year, things are just getting started. I need you to be like Jesus. "Go and do" and then come back to me. I need to give you the best instructions. I am not slow to perform and keep my promises. You are in my hand- you are truly the apple of my eye. I trust your decision making. I want to give you the humble heart and strategy that you need.

Daughter you are on the right track. Keep walking. Keep believing. Keep coming to me. Bring everything to me and I will help you process and think through everything. Continue to keep making space for me. I just want to sit with you. I want to give you the revelation. The same way I give them to those you listen to and eat from? How much better would it be to get it from the source? ME. Daughter, I want to give you those personal moments. The pillow talk, just the me and you.

You have grown so much. What did you think the purpose of all that was? It was for YOU to connect with ME. I’ve stripped away all of your idols so that we can be together. I want to do life with you. This is our honeymoon. I want to do things with you instead of for you.

Whether you journal your prayers, a recap of your day, things you are greatful for or as if God is speaking directly to you: JOURNAL. You can write down visions and dreams Holy Spirit has given you, things that may scare you to say out loud, sis you have to write it down.

Pray and ask God to give you the power and the desire to stay consistent with journaling. In Habakkuk 2:2 the Lord says "write the vision and make it plain." Sis- you aren't too busy to WRITE IT DOWNNN!! Show God and yourself that you have faith to believe for miracles. I pray over you that God would allow your journal entries of this season to be a receipt and proof in your testimony in the next season. Pray, write it down and watch God work. It may not always look like what you want but I can promise you- it's what you need!!

Happy journaling 🥰😘

Xoxo-Paige